My Old Self

I had a great time last Saturday with two of my closest friends.

Di and I strolled around Rockwell for almost an hour and wandered around Fully Booked for a couple of minutes before we finally decided to sit, eat, and wait for Joei at Press around 4pm. Joei arrived from class at past 5pm. And we stayed there till 10pm! Good thing they served bottomless iced tea! Hahaha!

It’s been more than a year since the 3 of us last hanged out together. We planned on meeting several times before, but we just never got to. I really missed those two! More than I thought I did. Time just flew by. Before we knew it, it was time to go.

We bonded a lot for 6 hours at Press. We just talked and laughed. Ate and laughed. Reminisced and laughed. Had our pictures taken and laughed. Ate again and laughed. Shot a video with Joei’s phone and laughed. And chatted some more and laughed. We just couldn’t stop talking. And laughing!

We talked about our professors like Edralin and her mysterious hatred for us mostly proved by our group’s “Norway assignment”. Harvey and his more than palpak thesis counseling that we had to revise—no, redo(!)—our entire paper in 2 weeks! Arteficio and her enduring patience when we were always 30 minutes late for her 1-hour class. Sir Habs and his shocking sex preference, but he’s still my favorite teacher. Sot’s kakupalan and kamaniakan! How I wish we could sue him!

We talked about the intrigues, gossips, and backstabs. Like that about the swimming invitation from Dose that we never went to. The Gang’s (minus Joei) bewildering angst towards d’Bullies. Darth’s kilikili and her “scandalous” stories. Survivor’s insecurity and betrayal. Monkey’s befriending me because her crush supposedly “liked” me. The teddy bear Monkey’s crush won for me at Enchanted and my refusal to accept it. Our old block’s being such a loser.

We talked about our happy moments and unstableness. Our first impressions of each other. Di’s never-ending list of crushes. My surprising recovery from Kuya proven by a video which no one should ever see! The boys running after Joei and the girls who want to be her! Hahaha! And of course, the taco salad in SPS and Agno, the kwek-kwek in Aristo, and the fruit shakes in SPS! Yum yum!!!

Sigh… Those were the times… The good old days... Things seemed so complicated back then, but appear so simple looking back now. Where did time fly to? Where did it leave me now? I remembered my old self as I chatted with them. But now, I’m again starting to forget. I just wanna be happy. I wanna be okay. For a change, I want being “stable” to be normal for me. Where should I go to? What step should I take? Am I ready to leave? Should I start pursuing a dream?

I dunno. All I know is that a day isn’t enough. I still miss them. More. Because maybe, I miss who I am when I’m with them. I miss my old self… No matter how aloof, uncaring, and bitchy I looked to some people. Hay… I just really want my old self back!